Mother.

k la people..don scold me on the previous post ok. though it s quite obvious tat i dono wut to blog.

n while the celebration of mother's day..i got an idea!!! hehe..

happy mother's day to every mother!!!!!

ok, a short story. while i was teaching arithmetic today, a student jz popped a question tat makes me feel shocked at 1st, n then sweet into the heart, until now.


ZJ: Teacher teacher, do u have children?

Teacher May: (shocked, n acted to be angry) harh? teacher is not married yet! where got children?

ZJ: oh nola..i jz wanted to wish u HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY....


hehe. pure heart, simple mind, with innocent faces. my children ^^



but...How many more years to go to be qualified as a real mum? =p




anyway,For now, happy mother's day foolili!!!!! =p u r the best!!!


=maymay... ^^=

Holiday.

yay!!! it s holiday!!




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hmmm....I should tell u more after my holiday. =p

chao people!!! cal me out anytime!!! ^^

=sohpohmaymaycantwaittogoholidaywithbaby=^^

"cover" girl.

wow.



i think i love study so much.




After studying..i feel tat...im like empowered and very very knowledgeable.





I think i love reading lecture notes again n again also.




Everytime i read ah..i feel that..wow..tat s a sense of LOVE and APPRECIATION towards my lecturer who had done this thick notes for me.





I think i even love exam.




wah...feel so good when i noe how to do and i feel the sense of competence n also the satisfaction after every exam.





wah!!! i am such a darnnn positive person.






Too bad.







2 more papers to go~~!!! XD





=soooo-sarcastic-maymay...=p

Math.

After 14years of studying mathematics.........





After 10years of learning arithmetics...and one year of teaching arithmetics......






After 4months of taking this MATHEMATICS FOR YOUNG CHILDREN course........





Today, is wednesday.




3more days, is the exam day.





n....i do not even know how to define mathematics.






What is math la?





ask yourself this question, can u define?





after...............years of counting n counting for nothing n cracking ur head.





=helpless-maymay........=

Hopeless.Helpless.

After dono how many weeks, or months i have not updated my blog, finally today, i miss it so much. i mean..i miss the feeeling of blogging; of typing as i like; of...telling out whatever inside my heart.

SUddenly feel quite down. Mayb..it s the phobia of exam? or...b4-exam-hung-gui-jing?? =p haha.. i dono. jz feel..............worries and anxiety.

Thinking about the exams that i , or WE had during our secondary schools. wow, tonnes of books to study, bcoz we need to prepare for 10 subjects for everytime exam. ok, at least...7.or 8.

However, i guess i didnt feel as much pressure as now though im only taking 4 for this semester. I would say..the questions may not be as tricky as add math. or...as not much memorizing part like bio. or not as tough as writing a2 bm essays.

But...sometimes i feel the pressure from myself. The pressure of aiming high, and wanting to achieve the highest.

So sen fu. especially for a subject..that i donno anythin. but tat s my subject..MY MATH!!!

i love math. but how can i dono anythin about math? stupid.

I really hope u read my blog. yes YOU. you ok??

You are so annoying. u r the WORST lecturer tat i have ever seen.

I m not talking her lecturing skill ok, coz she has no lecturing skill at all. That s fine for me. But...she has got SERIOUS SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEm.

she discriminated us. she said that, CHINESE EDUCATED PEOPLE has got poorer english (SO SO SO ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!! what s her right to make tat statement??? her english sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). n she simply give assignment mark 3.75/40 to a student without proper reason.

she is being soooooooo rude to us. can u ever imagine ur lecturer write the word ASSUME on the board n tell the whole class tat ASSUME means making an ASS out of U n ME? (ASS-U-ME)

as a lecturer, she is nottttttt helpful at alllllllllllll. she jz wan us to FAIL FAIL FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ask her to tell us what to focus for exam or jz a revision for the course, u noe wut she said????

u all have not been listening to my lecture all this while, now u all wan to escape via an easy way??? i don wan to spoon feed u all n u all SHOULD know what to study if u follow my lecture.

what the hell???????????????????????????

she is sooooooooooooooooooo.........damn shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y i suddenly so angyr? coz......vivian provoked =p hahaha....nola..it s jz tat.....i felt a sudden anger in me. when looking at her lecture notes, it s nth different from the paper in the waste paper basket. Yes, no content, meaningless, a mess. exactly.

Hopeless lecturer.

helpless student.

=dono-wut-to-study-maymay.......=

Released.

hallo people.

Was such a hectic hectic week. Finally, done 2presentations, which fall on the same day. Huh.

Math presentation. Wakaka a very funny n simply 1 hehe. n it was like when we went to the front of the class , only we decide, who is going to be the teacher, who is going to be the students n stuff. ( For ur info, we r doing micro-teaching, which means we going to "present" the teaching in the class.) bu very fun!!! coz i acted students for 2 times =p

IT presentation. wah very very nervous!!! coz as melissa said, we had a very high expectation to ourselves, n we were the first group to present!!!!!

but after all, i guess i did quite well. =) hehehe...feel myself getting more n more professional!!! ^^

n after 2weeks, exam.

well...have not been thinking about it much., n i relli wanna go for a holiday!!!!

hehehehe...halo halo finding people to go holiday together...

12th n 13th May....mon n tue....trip to anywhere...(but i suggest genting =p) hehehe...pls pls contact me if u r free... =p

The Conflict.

Hi Mae Fong!!! i know u r reading...=p wakakaka..

k la..Mae fong is my lecturer..must hi her 1st..then only..holla people!!! wakaka..

(ok seriously, this is kinda a post for my assignment, so don bother to read if u r not interested in this preschool thingee... =p)

ok, to be very honest to Mae Fong, today is the due date of this blog thingee. but seriously n honestly, i couldnt think of anythin interesting to be blogged ere..but FINALLY..ahahaha..after referring back to the study guide that u have given..yeah!! could think of sumthin!!! wakaka...

The thinking started from the conversation with Jacklyn today when we were stucked in this super jam kajang. huh. =.=" Jacklyn was telling me about the pressure and stress she has got from her kindergarten.

well..when she told me about this, i felt the same kind of feelings that she has. THe experience of working in kindy last time.

Well..it s not about the kids. The kids are cute, they are innocent. It s about the principal, and the parents, n about myself.

Sometimes i jz feel sick of them when they just loveee to give pressure to the children. For them, learning is about homework. n homework, worksheets, textbooks, alot of exercise books, are the only ways to learning.

N bcoz of their own beliefssss, i m being pushed. The pressure and the stress, came from the center of my heart.

When Cony rosaline n doreen (my last time lecturers) keep telling me in the class to encourage PLAY n implement learning thru play in the classroom, don give worksheets, evidences from the theorists, well, it s all useless. Bcoz...im nt the boss. =.=" Im working for people, i m not in the plce to say i donwan to giv worksheets, bcoz if i do so, i ll be reprimanded n worxst, fired. =p

well...worksheets..worksheets..worksheets...

owh..pening pening........=.="

well..i don blame those parents who have no knowledge on this, but even my principal, who has got this diploma from UM, she is like. haih. inappropriate!!!inappropriate!!!only go for money!!serve parents as customers but not the children!! Parents-centered!! wah!!!!

Perhaps for her, getting the diploma is jz another pathway for her t oearn more money. Everytime parents ask for more hw, then she ll ask us to give more hw. LIke..if don giv hw...means it s not doing our job. wei! u think wut!! im not a homework giver ok!!!!!

WEll, y do we needa give homework!!! research has proven that worksheets has got no effect on children's learning until primary!!!!!!!!

but...how to blame them?? when children go to attend primary school, they will be shoot with A LOT N ALOT N ALOT of homeworks even!!!!!!!!!1if we don start at preschool, how children gonna survive??? but but...but!!!! how to open up chn's mind jz by giving worksheetS?? they cannot be creative!! (like me), they are not trained in their living skills!!! (jz like me oso=p) they cannot think out of the box!! (jz like any malaysian who has gone thru Malaysia Education SYstem.)

well, so sorry to say. i havge gone thru it. n now, children are still, n keep going on, victimized. =p

haih. conflict conflict. when i worked tat time, i always feel that im not doing the right thing. When the children cannot finish their hw, i needa cut down those fun time like singing time, jz to sk them to complete the worksheets 1st. SOmehow..feel myself relli stupid. i became a homework giver. though we still have art n craft time, got this waater play time, but...it s all about...like a performance. Art n craft must b nice work....etc etc.

I noe it s not their fault for not doing it, or for those weaker ones, it s not their fault of not knowing how to do. It s my fault. Im not providing the right thing for them. n after 5months of keep doing the wrong thing..i surrendered. SOmetimes when i c those teachers in the kindy shouting at the children like crazy type, i relli c them as..nut. bcoz.....haih. i oso dono la. it s jz about conflict. it s about the whole system.

where has gone wrong? whos gonna fix it? when r we going to have like GOOD preschool education like other countries?

well, the mindset of everybody, i have no idea how to chg it.

The WHOLE education system that is so academic-based, wanna chg? not relli so ambitious.

y we like to be copy cat, but not in education?

pls la m'sians, open up ur mind, n ur eyes.

Education, is not jz about workshits ok. i mean, worksheets. =p

=thinkingmaymay...=