Packed!

yay!! it s all packed!! hehe..finally..the day has come. i will be flying off to HK in less than 24hours!! hehehe... THough i will miss several parties here(melissa's christmas party..family's christmas party...JB aunty coming down..n primary frens gathering!!!). But... ...it's ok laa. We shall have more parties when i'm back k? =p

Merry Christmas people!! ^^ Merrily Merrily... ^^

=superspider"bad"woman, maymay=p

i am so upset now because i took 100 over photos yesterday n it s all super low quality. y?? because it was set only at 1 MEGA PIXEL!!!!


totally pissed with whoever who set it at 1mp. it s so stupid rite?? using a digital camera n the phootos captured are..puik!!!!! n i m stupid too!! y didnt i check!!!!!!!


ok whatever. i ll take 1000 over photos in hk with at least 8MP. (which is the maximum of the camera =p)


=stupidmaymay.....=

Daydreamer.

Everytime when exams are over, it s like a dream that came true. I noe there are always many nightmares before u could have a beautiful dream. But, who cares?





Life is just soooo beautiful when it s stress-free.
HAHA. GREAT days ahead!!! ^^

=excited, maymay=

100th. =)

听着一首又一首的歌，又不禁开始想起以前的故事了。

近来有不少朋友与男友/女友传来分手的消息，再加上看了很多张小娴的分手与爱的散文，那天分手的情景，又一直不断出现在我的脑海中；开始有点，‘回味’ 分手的滋味。

哈哈，我说回味，会有人要打我吗？但事实上，虽然回想往事心里总会酸酸的，但也有一种说不尽的甜蜜。

酸酸的，是想起当时的冲动与无知，不晓得天高地厚，犯了不该犯的错，做了毕生遗憾的事。到今天，我仍然无法忘记当天的每一个细节。


"我... ...可以抱你吗？就当是道别的拥抱可以吗??"


我看着他的双眼，真的很诚恳。我知道他很舍不得放下这段感情，我知道他还爱我。而我也害怕，那个拥抱过后，我也会舍不得。

但一瞬间，就是那一秒，不晓得是那里来的勇气与残酷无情... ...


‘对不起，我真的没办法... ... ...’ 然后转身，就走了。


真的很像电影情节吧? 哈哈... ...但原来所谓人生如戏，戏如人生，也真的不是骗你的。


这几年来，偶尔都会问自己，如果那一刻我做了另一个决定，给了那所谓的道别的拥抱，结果会不一样吗..?


如果没有狠下心肠，我们还会在一起吗? 如果还在一起，我们又会再分手吗? 等等等等，永远没有答案的笨问题。


当然这一份遗憾，现在也是一种很神奇的动力，不断教我怎样去维持现在这一段感情，学会了爱情是两个人的付出，是两个人的互相迁就，是两个人的化学作用；在这段感情路上，虽然说不上是一帆风顺，但是还算说得过去啦。hehehe.. =p 说起来，还得感谢上一段感情的刻骨铭心，换来现在"比较" 成熟的我, 不会胡乱发脾气，或是说一些不该说的话.


还是那句，人总是要失去过后才懂得珍惜。就是因为我曾经失去，所以更珍惜我现在拥有的他。=)

=love, maymay=

10 years ago.

1.20am in the morning. Today feel a lil bit special as Saturdays should be outing day for me n babywai. But since im in the exam mode, decide to come back home and study. Study, at least a lil bit. But too bad..i didn’t even know where is my notes. Fine.

I’m currently falling in love in Jay’s new songs!! And one of the song… reminded me of my childhood years in the primary.

Huh. 10 years ago. Seemed very long time ago.

10 years ago, I was only standard 3. I remembered i was still staying in my previous house. I remember I took school bus to the school. I remember I loved going to the stupid grass-less field in the school and run n run n run. Or going to the shading place to tanam the stones for no reason [ normally, I closed my eyes and make a wish after tanam-ing. N the naïve me always went back to the place to search for the stone. Haha. =) ]

Or playing pepsi-cola.. or playing the jumping ropes. and many many other FUN games tat may not require single cent. Oh ya!! I remember I bring handkerchief to schoo everydayl! Haha, u noe those printed with hello kitty or winnie the pooh haha. It was so cool! N it was just so convenient with the handkerchief inside the pocket. When u sweat a lot, (we never had air-cond in the whole school except the library, teacher’s restroom, and comp lab lah~) just take out the handkerchief n wipe wipe wipe…I remember the handkerchief is always WET. Hehe.

Anyway, I don think I would ever think to bring tat very-cheap-and-very-funny handkerchief to anywhere, anymore.

Life was so simple 10 years back. Go to school, come back from school, dinner, do homework. Tat’s it. I couldn’t recall whether did I enjoy my life at tat time, but definitely, it was so simple.

At tat time, 10homeworks per day was like… AH!! I got 10homeworks today!!! So many things to do!! But after 1hour plus, finished. Haha. Then will be very happy, go to the bed there to memorize the spellings for tomorrow, then sleep lu.

I wished to have 10homeworks like last time compared to 1ASSIGNMENT today. Haha. I wished to go to the field and to tanam stones again [anyway, the field is no longer there. the land is used to build a multi-purpose hall. =(] I wished to get back the handkerchiefs tat I used to bring to school. I wished that I kept my Garfield watch which I wore it for 3 years.

Ah. It’s beautiful.

N now, I feelike it s a picture with thousand memories inside. It’s so far away.

10 years ago, I was only 9years old.

10 years later, I will be 29 years old. Haha. N i might also be sitting in front of the laptop n talk about 10 years ago, like today. =)

=filled with nostalgia, maymay=

Exam Mode.

Holla people.


I had just done my Montessori paper, both practical n written. Honestly, i was disappointed. I tot i studied well, i should have done it better. And i did it quite badly.


I dono why i was so disappointed. Perhaps i had put a lot effort in understanding every area n read a lot and i loved the whole thing about Montessori. After all, when it comes to writing, i couldnt explain myself. Well, it was just 3months of studying a 16months thingee. I guess i didnt know the approach in depth n tats y it was so hard to put them in words.

Ok la. As i told my fren, the process was far more important. I learnt a lot and from zero, at least now maybe... i know 2/10 of Mont Approach?

Ganbate may. 2 more papers to go.

11days more to go. ;)

=gahyao, maymay...=

Argh.

My life has been too normal until i dono what to be posted here.

I feelike i have been insolating myself for such a long time. The places that i went for these few weeks were just home, 2nd home, college and kindergartens n my working centre. Isnt it pathetic?

Though there are some outings and alot sweet moments with hubby, some meaningful activities like going to foster home to play with bunch of kids and giving a talk in the study workshop, or even some shoppings and buying bags n dresses, but somehow... life s been dull for sometime.

Somehow, i envy my friends that are studying overseas. Seem that, and memang in fact, their lives there are filled with colours and im sure they are having great times there. Compared to me..my life is..haihz. so boring.

Anyhow! I shall not make any complain because my life is beautiful too! SImple life is something that a lot people cant get leh!!! I shall appreciate for what i have!

ok. enough la. Keke. In this kind of normal yet boring life..what can i crave for?

Friends friends, where are u people? I need some crazy laugh with you people. =)

Time ah time, couldnt u just move faster? I really really cant wait until our HK trip. =)

=bored, maymay=

1.

year. 12months. 52weeks. 366days. 8784 hours. 527040 minutes. 31622400 seconds. Being in love with you. =)

11/10/08 was a great day for wai~may. =) We totally dissolved into our 2-people world, all the sweetest happiest surprisest warmest happened in just a day, a significant day to be remmebered to mark our 1st year love journey.

From the slides, u see we were at a totally natural environment to celebrate our anniversary ^^ huhu...ok roger don say we are copy cats... my bf was the one decide and plan to go to taman pertanian la..hehehe..but it was really a great place to go for photo shooting!! we took relli relli a lot of photos!! The scenery there was not anything special, it s just natural, and very very relaxing when we were there. =)We had great times in the taman riding our bicycles here and there,very excited when riding down hills, but my legs suffered when needa ride up =p hehe. We spent time taking photos, laughing the "so-called" zoo =p, finding the birdges n flowers to take photos with, getting lost and finally decided to turn back to the main roads =p, and also rushing back when the rain in coming!!!! =p it was really really fun and sweet and it is all jotted into our love diary. =)

At night, we went dinner at tai thong imperial city and this is also the 1st time we had dinner in chinese restaurant for our special day. hehe. Of coz, the best part is at night which both of us prepared surprise for each other!!! ^^ It was really really really happy night that i couldnt stop smiling n saying thank u to my baby n hugging each other!!! ^^
However, wai said it should be kept private and a secret between both of us so i would not post anything about the surprises here wakakkaa..

Enjoy the slide~~!! ^^

=love, wai&may=

Learning journal.

It has been some time since i updated my blog. Well, days were normal yet sweet, study was quite relax yet the subjects are tough. Life s been easy but a bit busy.Ok seriously, i also dono what am i talking. =p


With all the 6assignments going to due in the coming weeks, i have not fell the stress YET. i feel good of studying these 3subjects and the feeling of 'learning' finally is back. Overall, all the subjects are something new for me instead of all the dull subjects i had last semester. I enjoy the lectures which we laugh and laugh non-stop and also times when we seriously ponder the questions posted.


It is really meaningful when you learn children in the different perspective of this great woman, maria Montessori. SHe is a really intelligent woman and very very foresighting. Montessori Education has lasted for 101years, n even today it s still applicable to our society. I love the way she talk about children, and the way she speak FOR the children. She always put herself in the children's shoes, and VIEW their world in their perspectives. I have never feel as impressed of all the theorists i have learned. I particularly love the way she impose discipline in children, which is from the inner discipline instead of external discipline, that MOST OF US are being disciplined that way.


Any idea of what is external discipline? ok la..like say..when u have a very easy-going and 'lem beh beh' lecturer...Will you be punctual for the class? BUT...if u have a very very strict and very very cheong hei and very very naggy lecturer...i am sure u will die die try to go to class on time...tat s what we call external discipline. =p er..another very direct example is when u see the external factor ---POLICE.. =p u don stop for every red lights..but u stop when u c police even it s only yellow light.. right? =p

But for inner discipline is which children they wan to be discipline by themselves. They are not called to be queit when they are working with the materials, but they just feel good when they have disciplines in their life. This is certainly very diffuclt which once i thought it s almoost impossible for the chidlren to do it, but after learning n reading more about Montessori, i know i can do it. Discipline is REALLY importaant in children in today's society as they are relli exposed to a lot external bad influences, with their own initiatives that they WANT to be that way.

Ok la, actually i have very much to say n many opinions about Montessori. I will really learn about this method n of coz, next time will teach my children by that way, which involves a lot of respect and dignity to the young children. Eh, children are human also ok, they also have self-esteem and dignity. So, stop scolding your children today like mad and ABLE TO CONTROL them by SCOLDING and YELLING is really not something great or something to be proud of.

=kindofseriouspost=p, maymay=

It makes me up.

Huh.

I love today. really. =)

=thelovelycouple=

May.Chiann.

Greetings to all.

The previous post was about the 4months of my life in college, my family & my bf. N now, i gonna tell u a story about may~chiann.

may~chiann..basically for those who noe us, know very well that we r the bestest friends. hehe. We share the same thoughts, we share laughters, & we just...undescribably click with each other. =)

hehe these were last year. last time look like apple & damn short hair...........

Now!!!! hahaha...pretty so much already hoh?? =p though we wear cincai cincai hahaha...the biggeest change is the hair ba =p


4months of your holiday, were actually 4 months of my hectic college life. However, we still manage to have some time to go steam steam, go yamcha yam sei kui, 3 farewell parties, a concert, n joining our 30hour famine, & some talking & chatting time. Though didnt have much time being with you, but with u in Malaysia, the feeling is just different. I feel that u r so near to me, that i can find u anytime, i can talk with you anytime. Unlike when u fly back to russia, i somehow...feel lonely at times.




hahaha..as she is my sifu that taught me how to make sushi...so homemade sushi for chiann as b'day present.. ^^ so sweet hoh? =] ( a bit look like force her to eat =.= HAHA..)

SUSHI!!! ^^

Gary's concert ^^ Free tickets from YS, and we enjoyed the nite, shouting, yelling, singing, dancing (waving our hands la =p) ... ... ...

Kahyian's farewell!! hah..the 2nd pic is pretty cool...dono why both of us tongue out but looking at different side =p

Voon's farewell!!! 8 gua nite gossiping others. =p

30 hour famine ^^ thx for joining us chiann hehe, u brought more fun to the camp. =) n remmeber concert time haha...shouting screaming yelling getting attention from others coz we sung with full of emotions HAHAHA...

The last 2 days were actually the climax. As we have planned these 2 days packed with acttivites~!!!! hehe Shopping la, EAT la, movie la, steamboat la, badminton la, SUPER pingpong la (^^v), shopping again la, sing k!!! la, hehehehe...n i personally think that these 2 days were like...hahaha..we have done everything together!!!! ^^

Yay!! this is my birthday present!! chiann draw out all the things that we did together during her 4months holiday with me ^^ isn't it so so so sweet?? love this present very much!! n now i hang it on the wall so that i can c it everyday... ^^

Haha...after our badminton n pingpong game...suddenly realized we didnt take photo, so just take our badminton rackets n post in the toilet =p


act cool =.=

ok la..i oso dono what are we trying to do..just act stupid inside the toilet =p hahahaha..luckily no other people inside the toilet =p

may.chiann in k room!!! 5 hours k man!!! sing until very tired but very satisfying n very happy!!! ^^


Chiann, u r one of the best companion in my life. With ur presence, i can be as crazy as i can, with ur presence, we always laugh for no reason, n really really laugh until 'luk dei'. With your presencce, i feel warm, secured, because u r always the one that stay close to me & sit beside me, even when we r in the big gang like yamcha gang or the girls' gang.

The last moment at your house is just like normal...crazy n sah poh =p even ur siblings laughed at us =p

ok..i don understand y u had tat emotion..u said it s happy..but actually..i think u look like very tung ku =p

seeing your tung ku face..makes me feel very happy =p HAHAHAHA...

hahahahaha......damn funny n stupid =p =p =p

Take care of yourself over there. Although we did not cry even until the last moment at 5.50pm, but deeply in my heart, i felt the sourness n thinking....huh. After another year only can c u in person, goin out together. =( i will miss you very very much. C u again in webcam as i said, n we will stay connected via e-mails!!! ^^


=trulyloveyouasmybestfren, maymay...=

A deep-tot post.

Holla people.

1.19am. i suddenly realized that i haven't been doing any deep tot for sometime. Yea, it s the time now. 1.21am. the time which everyone in my house had fallen asleep. As my baby had also already fallen asleep that he would not rush me to go to bed XD

4months of my semester 5 in my Diploma course, was such damn long period of time. I felt that i have grown very very much after these 4months. I had a few little and some big turning points in my life during these 4 months, and fortunately, i had gone thru every of this point kinda well.



30 hour famine was such a HUGE experience for me, which the naive me thought that it was so easy being a camp leader and i just agreed to take the post without any further thinking. DUring the process, i tot of giving up. i tot tat i couldnt make it. i tot tat i should just forget about it. However, as the planning & organiziing part went on, as everybody start to be enthusiastic & helped out in the pre-events, as the funds were coming in, as everybody was pushing & encouraging each other, we continued, and we worked hard, we tried to pursue everyone to join, we continued to plan, to discuss, to learn form each other. We had arguments, but we compromised, we made the best decision together. N today, i firmly say that, I did not regret even a single second as i had really learnt a lot n a lot n a lot. I believe this is one of the best thing that i had done in my life, organizing a camp n successfully collected RM 13k to help children of the world. I am proud of myself & my Jwuwey & all the committee members seriously.I had learnt very very much that, there s nothing that i can do, without the assistance and cooperation from my organizing committee. They had done alot of great jobs and we made it. The program was awesome. Everybody was amazed with the planning and activities that we carried out. Everyone enjoyed & learnt something from the camp. And the feedbacks were..huh. so great!!!! ^^

And with the big event, i still have to cope with 5 subjects & 10 assignments for tat senester. It was quite rush & last minute work that the due dates of the assignments were all one after another. But perhaps it was already the 5th semester, i feel tthat i have immunized the stressfullness and therefore whatever that come, i just do & submit & get back quite good marks =p wakaka...



Family. In the midst of my semester, my bro flied off to Melbourne for his studies. The home was left much quieter than when he was here. I admit that i also spend less time with my family after the left of my bro, as i am really busy with famine camp, and also with my hubby. Although there were some arguments, some misunderstanding, and a lot of tears, but after all, i need to adapt myself to the family, and try my best to understnad & accept my family, because you could change everything in your life, but not your family. I am learning mum really, so just gimme some time.




Of course, the biggest chnage in my life is that, i am a girlfriend of a working MAN now. Yea, i have a bf with the life of 8.30-5.30, and he wears long sleeves & black long pants & black leather shoes everyday, and he is damn tired after 8pm =p Though we could no longer turn back the time of being the uni life couple, but, we still enjoy every single bits of time when we are together. You are rite baby. When we have less time to be spent with, we appreciate more. =) Of course, this big change has cause a lot of my tears. wasted la. Now i am still happy and sweet and even sweeter than last time with my baby what =p



2 weeks of holiday. Unlike the uni, we still have another semester until december before year end holiday. Huh, it s another hectic 7weeks semester. Good luck may. Learn more, so that could do more for children in the future. =) Ah...Need to always remind myself of my beliefs & my goals =p Somehow, when you are in the process, sometimes you just forget why are you doing all these things. Huh, time to be back to kindergarten & find a bunch of kindy children to chill me & awaken my love towards them.

( owh..faster go&sleep...if not chiann is going to scold me tomorrow if i wake up late...XD)

=abitcheonghei, maymay... =p

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=happybirthday, maymay... =p

All I really need to know I learned in kindergarten. by Robert Fulghum.


ALL I REALLY NEED TO KNOW about how to live and what to do and how to be, I learned in kindergarten.

Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Kindergarten.

These are the things I learned:


Share everything.

Play fair.

Don't hit people.

Put things back where you found them.

Clean up your own mess.

Don't take things that aren't yours.

Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody. (verbally or physically)

Wash your hands before you eat.

Flush.

Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.

Live a balanced life - learn some and think someand draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.

Take a nap every afternoon.

When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together.

Be aware of wonder.

Remember the little seed in the styrofoam cup: The roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.

Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup - they all die. So do we.

And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned - the biggestword of all - LOOK.

Everything you need to know is in there somewhere.



The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation.Ecology and politics and equality and sane living. Take any of those items and extrapolate it into sophisticated adult terms and apply it to your family life or your work or your government oryour world and it holds true and clear and firm. Think what a better world it would be if all - the whole world - had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down withour blankies for a nap.


Or if all governments had a basic policy to always put thing back where they found them and to clean up their own mess. And it is still true, no matter how old you are - when you go out into the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.


© Robert Fulghum, 1990. Found in Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need To Know I Learned In Kindergarten, Villard Books: New York, 1990, page 6-7.

Do YOU still remember what you have learned in kindergarten?

情人总分分合合..



可是我们却越爱越深..


认识你，让我的幸福, 如此悦耳...



^^



=May-to-Wai=

Graduation Ceremony.

Greetings people!

Hehe..long time never update again. Well, life is normal everyday, so i have nothing significant to be posted here. People seem to think that i am still emo-ing since the day my darling started to work, become a working MAN. However, it turned out to be quite ok!!! Yea..at times..i feel the time is sooooo slow...seem to be crawling..but ok..i have grown in 2 weeks time!! i learn to wait for him to finish work (even until 1am ^^); learn to cook by myself (=p hey it s delicious ok..i got 90% for my 1st oi semm lunch =p n it s gonna improve a lot more ^^); i learn to be independent, plan my own time, and even have more time for my studies, assignments, and revision. I learn to appreciate every second i could spend with him, and we feel happier than last time when we meet and talk and sweet sweet together. And the thing that could never change...we still see each other EVERYDAY!! hahaha..amazing rite.. ^^

ok!! perhaps i should stop sai meng...if not u people will scold me again hehe.. ok..come back to the topic!! Graduation ceremony!! FOr your info, my bf is graduated in Bachelor in Economics And Finance and Banking, from Monash University. The graduation ceremony was simple yet very grand and formal. Hehe, those of u study in Monash...don need envy..u will soon be on the stage!!

Anyway, it was a very wonderful day for my babywai and of coz his family, and me. ^^

ok..don complaint for the blurness..hehe..tat s my babywai!! My hands were never tat shaky until tat day =.=" hehe..ok...don worry he will get a better photo by paying rm90.

Presenting to u..the Graduate ---Yap Woon Wai!! hahaha..handsome!!! ops, i mean the lil bear =p

Hehe..sweetie couple ^^

Happy Yap family!!!! ( yap sister not in the pic...)

woo!!! cun!!!! XD

HANDSOME!!!!!

I tot it was quite nonsense..But got la some people said that those who haven graduate is NOT ALLOWED to wear it until u are graduated..so i can just post by holding it... wait la!! i can wear in about..2years time ba =.=

Finally..camwhore ^^ hehe...can u feel the happiness n sweetness just from our big big smile? =)

Gahyao baby!! We have long way more to go... =)

=diabeticmaymay...^^=

我又崩溃了。


当他拥抱我的那一刻，眼泪就再也不听使唤，流了出来。为什么那么不争气？？为什么那么脆弱？？


今天表面上真的很忙，去这里那里买这样那样, 也搞定了满多事情。 一如既往，逛街也闹出不少笑话；但脸上挂着的笑容，总是带有丝丝忧愁, 很纳闷。


我已经尽力去掩饰了，我已经尽量让自己不去想，要开心一点，要去享受我们的二人世界。但当他拥抱我的那一刻，眼泪就再也不听使唤，流了出来。为什么那么不争气？？为什么那么脆弱？？


他告诉我说，他一早就发现我不开心了。我知道他也很努力地逗我开心。他说了很多很多安慰我的话。‘不要害怕傻瓜，没有任何东西会改变的。我还是会在你身边啊!!! 除了上班，我把所有时间都留给你……你是最重要的!!


说真的，我一句也没听进去。因为，他说的这番话，我也曾对自己说了上千万次。虽然在几个月前就开始给自己很多的心里准备，但到头来，还是很害怕，很不开心, 流了好多眼泪。



是时候长大了。



=真的真的很酸的maymay...=

才刚把电话放下，忍了好久的眼泪，就从心里面不断地涌出来。不想让他知道我伤心，不想他知道我心里好多好多的不安与挣扎…



可能是自己幼稚吧，很害怕当你开始工作后会忽略我，会没时间陪我。以前简单甜蜜温馨单纯的日常生活，也快要变成一种奢侈。不晓得何时才能再在一起煮饭仔，又或是一起去跑步，又或是陪我去上课。生活又再回到以前一个人孤孤单单的感觉，不禁有一种失恋的酸涩…怎么回事了？？？



一直不断告诉自己不要想太多，但对一个被爱惜和被宠坏了好久的人来说，要说不想...还真的很困难。想想以后一个人的午餐，一个人去好无聊的学院，一个人驾车，一个人回家…想一想，心里酸酸的，眼泪又好像开始不受控制，一滴滴地流了下来。



哎，算了吧！生活再苦还是要过！！又或者不是我想像中那么地不堪，反而会更好呢..?收拾好心情！！与其唉声叹气，不如好好珍惜剩下的日子，在我们进入另一阶段的感情生活之前，再享受一星期的简单甜蜜温馨单纯的幸福吧…


=自我安慰的maymay…=

LAST MINUTE.

I am..so so so so sick of doing assignments last minute!!!!!!!


From the last semester, i promised myself, so so so determined to myself, i declared that,



''I WILL FINISH MY ASSIGNMENTs 1 WEEK BEFORE THE SUBMISSION DATE.''


... ... ...


ok. continue to dream about it. This coming thursday to submit 2 assignments, rushing, rushing and rushing. huh. i tihnk i can only finish by thursday itself, ok, thx to the lecturer as well, giving blurry instructions, make my life even tougher.



exams are coming in one month time; 4more assignments to be submitted. 30hour famine in 2 weeks time.



=stressful-maymay...=

When your are sad,




one song is enough to fill up your empty mind.





Only one song, n i could listen to it, again n again.





=down-ed, maymay=
currently listening to: 第三者，梁静茹

1 and a half hour ago, my heart was totally broken. i couldnt stop the tears, i couldnt stand the pain. For 18 years and 10months of being Yong Kah May, i finally came to this day, which i want to stop being Yong Kah May.

1 and a half hour ago, i was being scolded, as if i have killed someone. as if i have robbed the bank. as if i just put fire on somebody's house. i have so many doubts in my heart, i have been keep thinking, i have been struggling. i shouted, i cried, i scareamed. i wanted to know, i really really wanted to know, m i..m i tat bad? m i the worst person in her world? did i really..really so wrong?

1 and a hlf hour ago, it was 11.30pm.

At this moment, my heart had stop breaking. My tears have stopped. The pain has gone. n I, am no longer the person that i used to be.

At this moment, i feel the tranquility and peacefulness in my heart. i have stopped doubting myself. i have stopped thinking, that my mind is so blank. i promise to myself, i would not cry, would not scream, would not shout, anymore. whether i have done wrong, or whether, i was the worst, it s not important anymore.

For at this moment, my heart had just told me, she is dead.

=I-am-dead, maymay=

I wonder...





If kindergarten teacher was only about teaching 123 n abc...





y m i studying 27subjects n doing at least 54 assignments like crazy to complete my diploma?






u think i got nth else better to do ah.






=belief in my belief,maymay =)

firstly, a happy belated birthday to my dear bro, kah chun!!!!

hehe, this is the first time of the family, standing in front of the laptop n sing bday song hahaha... ( for ur info, my bro already went to melbourne to continue his bachelor...)

well, nothing much has changed since he left the home. Life is still like that, everybody is busy with either studies or work. Only when weekends where we have fmaily day, we always say 'if chun was here ah...if ah ko here, he sure can finish this food..." =p

anyway, the house still seems to be queit at times when bro s not around. This fat big guy always laugh like crazily loud, even 10miles away oso can hear tat type hehe. Summo when he is not around to disturb grandma..hehe...just...hmphh....kind of....a bit hong hui la =.=

we really miss u bro!! ^^

=maymay=

Holla people.



well well...i feel that..the person who created the name kesas for kesas highway is brilliant.


He s been so thoughtful and foresighting.


Kesas was actually named kesas...because when u twist n turn n once u enter 'SEMPADAN LEBUHRAYA KESAS'... ... ...


it become ----SESAK. (k e s a s -> s e s a k)


brilliant huh?"?


=mouliuagainmaymay=p

Okok, greetings to all.

OK, im kind of upset, and also sad at this moment. honestly.

u noe, something, n some words just make me fed up. i...i couldnt believe what u have just said. i...i wan my eyes to deceive me....

It s u. yes,u. u!! u la!!

CHONG XIAO CHIANN!!!

she..she...she said she hated me just because...JUST BECAUSE... i got a LAPTOP IN GREEN!!!

okok fine. im now..burst.

A revenge.

GREEN...GREEN...GREEN..lalala..it s green..so how??

eh, ur blog background oso green hoh chiann?? aiya pai seh pai seh... =p =p =p

=ilovemylaptopmaymay^^=

The A-B-C.

Antecedent-
Mummy cook Yummy food.



Behavior-
Overeating.



Consequence-
Stomach is growing bigger.



=sohpohmaymay =p

我的幸福定义就是... ...

妈妈买早餐给我,

男友也买早餐给我... ^^

huh! too heng fuk.. =p =p =p

VIRGO.

The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22) -maymay, 18th Sept

Dominant In relationships. -we are democratic people... =p
Conservative. -hmm...ok sometimes.

Always wants the last word. -true.

Argumentative. true.

Worries. -true.

Very smart. -very true.

Dislikes noise and chaos. -true.

Eager. -hmm..somehow it s true.

Hardworking. -not so true.

Loyal. -true true true.

Beautiful. -super true XD

Easy to talk to. -true.

Hard to please. -quite true (sorry baby]).

Harsh. -true.

Practical and very fussy. -true.

Often shy. -hmmm..maybe?

Pessimistic. -true.


hmm...so wut?

ok la...Proven that my mum didnt write a wrong birthdate on my brith cert.

=a true virgo, maymay =p

Debating ( 辩论) 的烦恼就是... ...

和朋友会伤感情,

而且破坏我心情!!! >.<''

Shadow of the day.

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

Pink cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.



Greetings to all.

omg. i think this is the 1st time talking about song in this blog huh? hehe..have been listening this song over and over again yday mindnite. so today, when i browse thru the net about this song, foouund out that different people have different interpretations of the song.

but for me, it s a song describing our life today that has been so unpredictable and uncontrollable..bad things jz can't stop happening. Sometimes, 'solutions aren't so simple', precisely telling us about problems that are unsolved and perhaps, the only way is to say 'goodbye' and just ignore it.

'Shadow of the day;, which is us that feel so helpless just can't do anything, but to embrace the world in grey, and accept whatever it is. As shadow, we are dependent on the SUN that set the way we should be.

The lyrics are short and simple, and the song has a really melancholy tone that it touched my heart so deeply. =) and the great point of the song is.. it s free for you to think in thorough on whatever it means!

=sexymaymay=p

Why is down syndrome being named as DOWN syndrome?



(i know ur answer is) : Oh..because..individuals with down syndomre are 'down down' dei...


Somehow... this answer do make sense. In fact, people with down syndrome must have some degree of mental retardation.


However...



the real answer is just simply because.. the founder of this syndrome is John Langdon DOWN.



=down-edmaymay....=

财政的苦恼就是... ...

钱包里有很多钱，

但全都不是我的钱。


=无聊maymay...=

if i could, if i really could...

to tell the time to stop moving..

to set myself in a nobody-world..

i, just want to..have a break.

Letting go all the responsibilities and all the CHALLENGES.

I am tired.

=maymay...=

Downdated.

owh halo people people!!!!

hehe as my title says, this blog has been quite downdated. haven been updating for like.....so long hehe. well well..holiday was quite meaningful!!!!! i mean....meaningful as in......had so much fun n quite enjoy la hehehe.....

Chiann is back!!!!! but only get to see her for....thrice until now?? hehehe..nvm nvm....still have long time b4 she go back to russia!!!!!! wakaka....steam steam!!!!!k k!!!!! n lots more time spent with my precious friendss....hehe~~~

then......Johor aunty has come and memecahkan ketenangan rumah saya for 3days =p her 2 sons are some kind of..superactive... =p but very fun be with them!!! they are just cute n irresistible =p (u c photos oso will fall in love to my cutie leonard nard...)


cute leh cute leh!!!!! wakakakka..=p



tomorrow is another new day!!!!Continue my physiotherapy, n my backbone is curing!!!!!1 we can go cycle n skating n sunway lagoon sooooon =p

n college started again!!!!! owh a hectic one. summore an expensive 1. aiseh. now go subang 1 time must spend rm18.40 at leasttttt jz to travel there. aiyo. car pool, or else car pull!!!! >.<''



=updatedmaymay....=

Wordful.

Ah.

Halo people..k just a random meaningless post
Actually, i have so many things to say. so many things to tell about. so many pictures to be posted up.So many ideas in my mind.

i wan to talk about the disasters happened in Sizhuan. I wan to talk about the course that im taking, special needs children in our country ,that how their rights have been neglected IN our country. i wan to post up photos of us went on crazy for whole nite in kaili's house. i wan to talk about my backbone that s injured n im on-going physiotherapy now. i wan to talk about the coming actiivty, Relay For Life. n i wan to tell some hidden words to some of my friends that have lost contact with me for so long.

i have so many things to blog!!!!!!!!!!!

but yet...haih. the pain of my backbone has coz me down for these few days n i don feelike doing anythin, but only to sleep, to sit, to jz play with my abacus again n agan n again in front of the table, don even wan to move. don even wan to think.

Anyway..i hope the pain will soon go away n have back my normal life....

may god bless me.

=painfulmaymay....=

hole-ly-day.

holla people. time flies, huh it s another friday again.

Friday, is always a challenging day for me to teach two classes of kindergarten arithmetic class. n today..failed.

The morning class students are getting bored of my class. They are not even concentrating, n i feelike im forcing them to do all the counting. 2 students have left the class. n i guess, soon there will be even more students to leave. Though the classes were boring, but i guess they love me quite much =p the boy students keep kissing me today..hahahaha..sweat.. -.- but sweet... =p but..haih. dono how to help the class. No progress. n it s so hard to teach especially having 3 different level of students in a class.

Fortunately, the afternoon class students still have the passion and interest to learn hehe. mayb they are all new and fresh n most importantly, they are all at the almost same level, so i can manage the calss well n teach them step by step. i think they enjoy the calss, n so m i ^^

Haih. still, sett bai!!!!

holiday has almost come to an end, nx week will be my fifth semester. a busy semester it will be. Feel tat i had an empty hole-ly-day. jz that the best event is can go to PD with my dear. ^^ n tml's potluck!!!!!!!!!! looking forward n soooooo cant wait hehe. ^^

=emptiedmaymay...........=

PD!!!! ^^

wow wow wow people. The header picture nice onot?? buahahaha...i feel myself so pro tat, i took the picture, AND...im actually in the picture!!!! hehehehe...geng geng!!~!!! =p =p =p


n here are more photos that are taken => PD trip~!!!! ^^ (btw, yesterday relli sunny =p)

b4 eat nasi lemak.. =p who s taking photo for us?? =p =p n yeap!! the camera stood by itself!!! =p

wah...the pose of future-still-got-hope...=p

lonley man =p my man ^^

sand-built breast cancer =p choi choi.. =p

cooool!! ^^

n after showering, we went to another stop to pak toh king kai lo. hehe.

^^

=nicetripwithwaiwai-maymay=